Friday, July 25, 2014

Lamar Latrell, 2000-July 24, 2014

I finally let go of my handsome Frito bear, my little bitty man, my Lamar Latrell. 

I wanted to let him pass on his own, as I don't think he was in pain from the hemangiosarcoma. But he was uncomfortable enough that he stopped eating, and he wasn't interested in most things, and I just knew it would only get worse. Still, there's nothing easy about doing that to your dear friend. 

Have to remember the good times, almost 14 years of them. 

Lamar Latrell came into my life in 2000. I was working at WildEarth Guardians in Santa Fe, and my co-worker's wife worked at the shelter. We stopped by to see if she wanted to join us for lunch, and just for fun I went back to see the dogs. Out of all the dogs there, somehow I was drawn to Toby, a beautiful long-legged tan dog with a black mask over his muzzle, who kept presenting his paw at me in greeting. 

I told the front desk staff that if Toby ran out of time, I would foster him. 

Sure enough, a few days later I got the call that Toby needed rescuing. I had to go to Albuquerque for a hearing on a lawsuit for work that day, but I told the shelter to please hold him for me. 

That evening, I rushed back to the Santa Fe shelter and got Toby. He drove back to my studio with me, sitting in the front seat of my Geo Metro and looking out the window with a big smile and a look of dazed wonder.

I had no idea how he would get along with my Tashi, but when I got him home he lay down on the floor at my feet and Tashi came over, playfully dipping her head a bit, put one paw on his shoulder and stood on him! It was a 100% Tashi way of saying that she liked him, and Lamar responded in kind. 

Funny because Tashi was always a grumpy girl and didn't like most dogs, but something about Lamar must have lit a little flame in her grumpy heart. 

For a couple of days, I thought about how I would find a home for Toby. Then I let go of that silly thought.

I had to find him a good name. I thought I would give him a spiritual name because I thought when it's a dog's time to move on from this life, if the last word on his mind is something spiritual it will help him gain an auspicious rebirth. But then I thought of Lamar Latrell from Revenge of the Nerds, and I thought, maybe laughter will get him to a good place as fast as anything.
And there was no shortage of laughter and fun in Lamar's life. Lamar was with me when I bought my house in Santa Fe, and he and Tashi came on a road trip to California for the Zimbabwean Music Festival that first summer together. 

Lamar got his first taste of the ocean on that trip, and he also learned about the joys of sleeping outdoors with nothing but a sleeping bag, his mom, and his friend Tashi. 

Lamar was a good traveler, relaxing quietly in the back of the car and staying close when we got out of the car. Exploring, but checking in often. 

 Sleeping right at my feet.

A perfect companion to his mom, who did a lot of those cross-country road trips in those free-spirited years.

Lamar loved the ocean so much. A bit too much; he never really got out of the habit of drinking ocean water even thought it never failed to come right out the other end.  

He loved chasing seagulls, running full throttle and barking joyously. Playing with Tashi in the sand, 

or just relaxing.

On one of those early trips, Lamar learned to swim. Tentatively putting those long legs into a stream in Yellowstone National Park, looking doubtful, then taking the plunge as Tashi swam in laps in front of him. Those skinny front paws flapping desperately up and down. But it worked! 

Once he figured that out, you couldn't keep him out of the water.
What fun to be a road trip dog in the Western U.S., 

to travel across so many wild landscapes, camping out. 

Meeting new friends in Portland when we moved there, sleeping in the van on our friend's orchard in Hood River, 

or just communing with the wildness of the Southwest or the desert of eastern Oregon. 

Of course, once Mom got out of her 20's and decided to do something serious like go to grad school, life wasn't too bad for Lamar either. 

Coming east, staying with family, then meeting Florian, still plenty of opportunities for Lamar to enjoy the outdoors.

Lamar was only 7 when we moved to Maryland, and was still an incredible frisbee dog, jumping up and catching them in midair. Those frisbees must have looked like seagulls. 

Funny how shelters characterize a seven-year-old dog as a senior, because both Tashi and Lamar were still so youthful at that age. 

I guess we were lucky in that both had a ton of vitality right up until the last year or two of life. 

Now that I think of it, it wasn't so long ago that they both climbed a 14,000 foot peak in Colorado, when Florian and I decided to pretend we were 20-somethings again and took a road trip out there with the pups. 

Some incredible hikes in the gorgeous desert, and Tashi was 12 years old! Lamar was 9. 

and like a bunch of irresponsible kids, we had nothing for them to drink on one hike but Gatorade. Lamar didn't mind. 

That was in 2009. In January!   

Even when we weren't going on an epic journey with them, we have certainly gotten out and about with Tashi and Lamar, then Lamar and Fozzie and whatever foster dogs we've had. 

So many hikes on the Potomac. So many chances to get nice and wet, wade, chase sticks, and swim. 

It is really a wonderful thing to have had such a companion. A creature who encourages you to be outdoors, explore every beautiful place, get wet, get tired, move, hike, and roam, and loves every minute of it. Florian and I have a pretty good life and we owe so much of our well-being to Lamar and Tashi and Fozzie and the foster dogs.

Just like Tashi with Lamar, Lamar's always seemed to like Fozzie. 

Ever since Lamar got to be middle aged he hasn't been crazy about other dogs, but since the beginning somehow he's liked his big mastiff buddy.

Of course, he's enjoyed the chances I tried to give him to just be with me sometimes too, since he was my oldest child once Tashi passed on. 

During his last few weeks, we walked down to the creek whenever he had the energy to go and he just stood in the water, enjoying the coolness and taking big shlurps. I gave him the very best days I could, and in the end I was with him, praying that he go to a Buddha-land, holding his head and kissing him as he passed from this world.

I miss my velvety Lamar Latrell and his joyful bark, his exuberant, long, gangly paws, his love of being scratched and his habit of turning around so you could scratch his butt in just the right place. 

Til we meet again, Lamar! Give a big kiss to Tashi, Mom, and Uncle Bob for me.


  1. A beautiful tribute...there is never enough time.

  2. Tears...

    He was lucky you decided to take a look in the shelter that day...

    Monty and Harlow

  3. Oh Kirsten, I'm so sorry. I was proud to have met Lamar. He struck me as definitely his own dog.

    I really enjoyed reading about his life with you. I hope writing it brings you some comfort.

    I also hope Fozzie doesn't miss his friend too much. Peace to you all.

  4. So sorry to hear this. What a beautiful dog and a beautiful life you shared together. It's hard to believe that he was once out of time at the shelter. I'm sure he's running on a beach again somewhere:)

  5. So very sorry to read about Lamar. I haven't been keeping up with blogs the past couple of months and didn't know he wasn't well. That is a lovely tribute to a wonderful dog. You had a great life together and made heaps of happy memories. I'm sure Lamar will be watching over you on your trip to Sweden.

  6. this was just an incredible tribute, my heart is just breaking for you. Please accept my deepest should turn this gorgeous post into a book. What a special dog Lamar was xoxo

  7. We are sorry for your loss. You have created a beautiful tribute post, thanks for sharing Lamar's life with us.

  8. Hi Kirsten, listen hon, anytime you want to come on home to the PNW. We're here and we'll have dinner and drinks with you and Florian. Until then, turn on the porch light so that Lamar can see the house tonigh from the Bridge. Hugs to you Kirsten.

  9. We too are sorry to hear of the loss of Lamar. Such a beautiful boy with such a loving mom who took him in. Thank you for sharing your lovely boy with us, taking us down memory lane and being part of our lives.

    Love the last pic of you two sleeping together. So sweet. :)

  10. Geez Kirsten, you've had so much loss lately, I'm so, so sorry. And I'm so sorry that I am so far behind that I am just reading this now.

    That was a lovely tribute to Lamar, I'm sure he's looking down from wherever he is and smiling down on you. Please let me know if you need anything.


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